Lane Change

I've traded in my suits for spit up on my shoulder, my 6am international conference calls for 5am feedings, coffee breaks with colleagues for one cup that I'm constantly reheating as I manage the chaos of the morning...


Oh, but is it ever worth it.

I actually never thought I'd do this. In fact, this was simply supposed to be a trial, since I was soooo sure I'd absolutely hate it..which I did, at first. {Keeping it real here, k?} There were many days that I called Mike and threatened - no,  promised - that I'd be back in the office by the following Monday morning. But then I'd see this..

Or catch Christian "doing Jackson's hair"..

Or see my sweet baby yawn..

Or pick Jackson up from school to see the fun surprise they passed out to the boys in the health class..

I'd picnic at the park for lunch..

And catch my 3 year old nursing his Mickey Mouse doll with my own nursing pillow..

And then it hit me.. all of these moments I am getting to witness are going to be gone before I know it.. and I don't want to let go.. not yet, not now. So much to the surprise of both myself and EVERY.SINGLE.PERSON.WHO.TRULY.KNOWS.ME: I am really enjoying this whole stay at home mom business. It's not at all what I thought I would be doing right now, but man, I really love it. It's crazy hard - much more difficult than I ever cared to realize before - but so gratifying. I don't get breaks, or uninterrupted phone calls. Heck, I'm lucky if I get to eat lunch without a 20lb baby on top of me - but I'm loving this season of my life and am so grateful to God for blessing me with the ability to slow down and savor these moments.. because before I know it, they'll be gone.